At a university where students pride themselves in openly expressing their beliefs, it can be difficult to find one’s voice, especially when dealing with a disability, Toppin said.
“You kind of feel like you’re overlooked on campus,” she said. “I feel like at Carolina there are a lot of really confident, smart, outgoing students. It can be intimidating, especially if you have a disability and feel like you can’t live up to the standard.”
Upon the re-emergence of her stuttering, Toppin said she began searching for a club or support group for students with communication disorders. She said she called the hospital and asked UNC faculty, but there was no specific group for people with speech problems. She then contacted Advocates for Carolina , a group focused on a broader scope of student disabilities.
Toppin said the environment of Advocates allows people to embrace differences and raise awareness for disabilities. She said in time she started viewing her disability in a more positive light, and eventually decided to fulfill her life dream of traveling to Japan.
“I was so proud of her for taking the opportunity and proving to herself she can thrive in any situation,” said Bisset Lee , a long-term friend of Toppin. “I knew it was an experience that would be entirely out of her comfort zone.”
Bob Miles, associate dean for UNC Study Abroad, said students can seek help for everything from allergies to disabilities.
Toppin said she studied abroad in an intensive Japanese language program in Japan. She stayed with a host family and spent free time traveling to historic towns and temples, although the highlight of the trip was wearing traditional Japanese clothing and taking photos, she said.
Toppin is now a junior and co-president of Advocates. Last month, she hosted a panel for students with disabilities who are considering studying abroad. She said it is common for those students to think their disabilities will exclude them from those opportunities.
“I think ‘disability’ has a negative connotation of being weak, but it just means we have to get more creative,” Toppin said. “It forces you to give your 100 percent. But once you succeed, you can say, ‘I did all this despite my disability.’ That’s empowering.”